i know Valentines day is supposed to be a day full of love and happiness and whatever for EVERYONE!!! but now Valentines day seems to be a day only for couples...

last year, i really loved Valentines day., my friends made me very happy... being with them and just hanging out with them is already a gift...

this coming Valentines day, even though i'm with my friends, i feel like this could be my worst Valentines day ever... maybe because some of my friends are hiding something from me and that i feel that my friends don't want me to be happy...

i really hate this week... every time i see some of my "friends"(those people that's hiding somehting from me), my day seems to get bad... then i always end up feeling very badtrip about things that normally make me happy....

maybe it's better if i didn't exist this week... it makes things a little bit better for me... this week i always make myself invisible to people aound me... i always end up being left behind or unnoticed... i know being unnoticed is my target but it only makes me more sad and irritated...

why is this week so BAD???!!!! need help!!!!!!!!

nang makilala ko siya, akala ko hindi ko siya mapapansin...akala ko friend lang talaga ang tingin ko sa kanya... pero nagkamali talaga ako...

hindi ko na kasi talga maintindihan ang sarili ko.. sabi ko, mahal ko siya... sabi naman niya, special ako sa kanya... akala ko naintindihan na niya ko.. pero nagkamali ata ako...

hindi ko maramdaman na special ako sa kanya.... siguro dahil sa pagkakalayo namin, nakalimutan na niya ako... ni magparamdam hindi niya magawa... eh ano kaya ang mararamdaman ko kung ganun siya... hay....kulit ko nmn kasi eh.. sinabihan na nga ako ng mga kaibigan ko na wag kang aasa dahil lam mo naman un... medyo *****... eh anong magagawa ko, mahal ko siya eh... mahirap naman kung maghahanap ako ng iba kahit alam kong siya tong mahal ng puso ko....

tanga nga ata tlga ko... ewan ko ba....

tulungan niyo nmn ako... konting advice naman jan...

hayyyyyyyyyyyyy...